Friday, August 26, 2011
I thought this would get your attention and might even raise a few eyebrows. It's not what you think so keep reading. It has been a while since I have written because frankly I have not been in a good frame of mind. Although I don't always have to be in the right frame of mind to write. I knew you would understand. I also believe there will be good days and not so good days considering. Since my surgery, diagnosis and recovery I have been concentrating on just that. Getting stronger. Resting in the shadow of the Father's wings as much as I can. Part of my discovery was I found it very amazing how little time I spent just being with the Lord, alone. To be honest I think it was much like my life, on the go and catch as catch can. Well that all changed July 8th when the doc came into the room and said, "It's breast cancer". Dang really?, was my first and immediate thought. Then the onslaught of images, thoughts, concerns, misunderstandings, fear, misconceptions, and worry began to bounce inside my head. Like a ping pong ball it would hit one side then bounce around and around off each side. So I just let it bounce weighing all of it and giving all of it to God as best I could.
Anyone who knows me well knows that I have been an avid believer in homeopathic and natural meds and treatments for years. So it was obvious for me to look into this sort of treatment. I would even blurt out on occasion, "if I ever had cancer I am heading to Canada or Mexico". At first I was considering that I had two options for treatment. The traditional and the homeopathic through nutrition and supplements. The traditional side had all the facts, numbers and stats on their side whereas the other did not. The non-traditional had testimonials of proof that people had been healed, but still not much medical data. This concerned me and my family, rightfully so, and with the aggressiveness of my type of cancer, I struggled with my decision. I decided to get a second opinion at MD Anderson. They ran me through a battery of tests to see if the cancer had formed anywhere else in my body......gratefully all clear. The doctor there described the cancer as a dandelion. We have killed the plant, now we have to go after any seeds that slipped through the lymph nodes. So here is what I decided......to do what I could to marry the two and use what I know to aide in my recovery.
Once I was on my feet again after surgery I began a juice regime and supplement regime to slow down any cancer that might be left behind. Cutting sugar, dairy and wheat from my diet was also key. I saw my primary care physician who put me on a great supplement routine consisting in Flax Oil, Fish Oil, CoQ10 (which actually slows down cancer growth), Brocco Protect (derivative of broccoli), Preventive Ten, and Meriva Sr. I put myself on Essiac Tea concentrate from Canada, Magnesium, Maitake Mushroom extract, Colodial Silver, Probiotic, Kavinace and Calunduala and Arnica for healing bruising and wounds. Plus I was juicing two to three times a day eating only vegetables and only fish and chicken and wild game for red meat. I felt strong, healthy and like I could take this on myself. Thinking I can do this. Again all about ME.
Then came the realization in my families eyes that they were not on board with the idea and thought it selfish of me to consider anything else than traditional treatment. I saw the fear in their eyes. Then I read something from The Holy Experience that sent up a little flag for me.